Yesterday, I typed up a quick post on money, simply because that’s what was on my mind and I needed a blog topic. Today, I’ll continue that trend, because it’s still on my mind.
I know my money stories don’t serve me, but I’m not sure how to tell new money stories. Actually, I know how to tell new stories, I just don’t know how to believe them! Abraham says a belief is only a thought you keep thinking; I suppose the answer lies in there somewhere. Do I need to tell my new money stories over and over — almost like an affirmation — until they become the thoughts I keep thinking?
My intellectual mind knows my stories aren’t true and don’t serve me. It knows there are better thoughts out there. Hell, it probably even knows what they are! Unfortunately, it’s not my intellectual mind that controls my relationship with money — and my emotional mind doesn’t seem to catch on very quickly sometimes.
For example — One of my money stories seems to stem from a time in my life when I wasn’t very well taken care of. That part of me still needs my parents to take care of me financially, even in some small way, long after their responsibility was over (Factor in the fact that both parents have transitioned, and you see how this doesn’t serve me).
I’ll spare you all the details of where that came from and exactly how it plays out, but suffice it to say that my intellectual mind knows that this is silly, irrelevant, and that it only makes the situation worse. That part of me knows that you can’t really replace loving care with taking care of someone financially — it’s just not the same thing. That part of me knows that this idea is outdated (in so many ways) and needs to be replaced. It even knows that what I need is some radical self-care, to replace the care that I didn’t get at the time; that self-love and self-care are the only things that can fill the void left by a lack of care (the love was there).
Like I said, my intellectual mind knows all that.
But the emotional part of me doesn’t get that anything needs to change. It’s perfectly happy with the old, outdated, thoughts and feelings. It’s perfectly happy with a story that doesn’t really make any sense anymore — if it ever did! — so it’s resistant to a new story.
Hmmm, what started out as rambling just to fill a blog post has actually done me some good. I think I’ve got some answers!
Thanks for listening! 🙂
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